APRIL 29, 2000
i've been
given a little gift :)
The
owner of another online journal that i read has given me
permission to link to her site from mine. (JaneDuvall.com)
i've been reading her words for some time now, and truly
appreciate the open and honest approach that she has. Her April
25th entry spoke right to my heart, and i was compelled to
write to her ... which led to being allowed to link to her.
Lucky me! Jane
also suggested some other sites that i might enjoy; sites that
include real women living real lives (which include D/s) and are
not afraid to talk about it. Who don't only write
"Master, i worship thee" pages.
i
guess i should explain that i don't think there's anything wrong
with dedicating a site to one's Master, per se. It's just
that there is more to life than Master. Yes, i am living
24/7 D/s, and surprising myself at how comfortable i am with
it. But the vanilla world is out there too. And it
knocks at the door.
In
all things, i answer to Him; that is a part of our power
exchange. But it doesn't mean i don't have, or am not
allowed to have, an opinion. It doesn't mean that i don't
have my own hopes and fears and desires, some of which have
absolutely nothing to do with Him. If i look in the mirror
and get depressed because i see my face aging, i need to express
that. Master isn't going to be able to "order"
that feeling away. What He does recognize is that expressing
thoughts like that in this journal, is therapeutic. So He's
not surprised when an entry might be filled with angst, or joy,
and have absolutely nothing to do with Him.
Am
i making any sense here?
i
suppose what i am trying to say is that there are all sorts of
things that make up one's life, besides a relationship of any type
with a significant other, be it husband, Master, boyfriend (or
girlfriend depending on your preferences). And all those
other things in one's life are interesting too. So when i go
to a site that is only about "Master", i feel
discouraged. Better that i see a one-paragraph entry that
says "i'm sad/excited today, and i wonder if my
sister/brother is coming to visit. i haven't
seen......", than something filled with "my Master
said, my Master did, He/she is wonderful."
Am
i ranting? Heh. Well it's my journal, so i guess i am
allowed ;-)
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Exciting thing number two.
i
received my confirmation, in the mail, about my business
name. It is official. i am a registered
business! Imagine that. i'm still wondering how it all
happened; it seems like it was a tiny kernal of reality that took
on a life of its own and well ... happened. i think i am
almost afraid of it. Remember being a kid and finding
something lying on the road, or in the grass, and not being sure
what it was so you nudged it with a stick to see if it
moved? That's exactly what this feels like. i imagine
some people would just grab the concept by the throat and give it
a good shake. i just want to nudge it first.
i
also registered my online homepage name. So now i have a
domain name that goes nowhere thus far. That's weird!
i was hoping that the business name would be available, but no
luck. So i registered the name i've been using for years
(long before computers, when i had a small hairdressing business
going at home). The name is "shadoFacts".
i'm not sure why i dropped the "e"; mostly for esthetics
i suppose. It didn't seem to look right added
in.
So. i now "own" www.shadofacts.com.
Which leads to nothing. Which means i now have to learn
either a redirect program, or find a host for the name.
According to what people are telling me anyway. i have to
admit i am totally lost in all this. Maybe i like living in
a state of confusion, or the state of confusion likes living in
me?
shadoe
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