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July
25, 2000
i
feel like i've been gone forever, and yet it's only been a
few days since i wrote. So much has happened ... a
whirlwind of activity that has left me feeling slightly
breathless and prevented me from having the stamina to go
to the local fet party tonight. Well that, and the
fact that Master is out of town. He did give me
permission to go, but no playing allowed, and to be
honest, it's just not the same without Him around.
Okay, so i'll admit i'm lonely.
Thelma
and Louise arrived at the house on Friday. They are
two online friends that i've now finally had the pleasure
of meeting, and it was with a heavy heart today that i
watched them leave, to continue on with the last few miles
of their week-long road trip.
i cannot begin to describe how
it felt to have them bounce into my life ... being
everything and nothing of what i expected.
Everything, because after years of chatting,
Thelma's exactly as sweet and vulnerable as i suspected
she was, and having the opportunity of seeing that in her
eyes was something i cherished. Nothing, because
after years of chatting with her, i always thought she was
tall. Heh. i win in the height thing by about
an inch. i want her to come back already.
i haven't known Louise as
long, nor chatted with her as much, but she felt like a
favourite sweater. Easy to pull on and warm in her
embrace. And not nearly so sweet as her online
personna after a couple of glasses of wine. (She's
going to kill me now!)
'Course Thelma and i decided
to hit the wine bottle about thirty minutes after their
arrival. Yee hah!
Later the same evening, G
& M came to visit and we had a barbecue. Later
still, Master went to the airport and brought Jazzy back
to stay with us; another online friend with the greatest
"y'all kinda" accent. i loved it, and
Her. She's a soft-hearted dominant lady who
discovered bonding with my cat wasn't so bad after
all.
After the night's meet 'n
greet activities, which involved staying up late, Saturday
afternoon found me 'sawing logs' as they say. i just
had to nap, which meant i missed out on the shopping
expedition. But still, it was a good decision
because of the munch we were holding later on that
evening. And the munch was very successful, i am
happy to report. We had approximately twenty-five
people attending, which is just a nice size to be able to
chat with everyone, however briefly. K was there
with her fiance, and looking wonderful. G & M
stayed in town so that they could come, and N was
there. (i really should find full names instead of
initials)
There's so much more to tell
about ... but my mind just isn't wrapping itself around
the events just yet. It still feels raw, fresh and
new. One thing i did do however, was inform Thelma,
Louise and Jazzy that there was a small payment for
staying here. (okay i'm incorrigible) i asked
that each of them give me a guest entry for this
journal. The following is the first of the three,
from Louise.
I sat in front
of the blank screen for a few moments trying to compose my
thoughts and figure out how to begin this journal entry.
Shadoe has asked me to do an entry based on my road trip
adventures with my trusty side kick and partner in crime
Sandra J. I have so many thoughts, feelings and emotions
that I’m not sure if I can concisely and coherently
compartmentalize them into neat little paragraphs. I’ll
definitely try that but I may revert back to my cathartic
style of just typing each thought and feeling as it comes
into my head … that may cause my entry to be a bit jumpy
but boy does it feel good when I take all those words from
my head and put them on paper.
The Thelma and
Louise road trip, as we so affectionately like to refer to
it, has been a totally amazing, wonderful, awesome,
beautiful adventure ( and any other positive adjective you
care to throw in there). All along the way we have been
privileged to meet so many welcoming, loving and caring
P/people who have happily taken us into their homes, fed
us and sheltered us. We’ve had so much time to sit down
and really talk and get to know these P/people whom I, for
the most part, had only chatted on line with. Of course
there were no surprises or disappointments (except of
course for the New York speeding ticket, but I digress).
Kahn Sir showed me how to braid a handle on a flogger,
ambrosia let me and Sandra keep her up 'till 1 a.m. with
girl talk. Sarah greeted us with hugs and her beautiful
smile (and yes our first caffeine of the day, thank you
sarah!!). Kesha and her Master took us out to lunch and it
was great to see how happy they are together. Coffee was
an absolute delight with his funny stories and a great
dinner even if the wait staff was waiting for us to leave
so they could go home *g*. Of course being in Canada meant
doing as the Canadians do, so we met Rathstar Sir at a Tim
Horten’s for coffee (timbits are yummy!). It was cool
watching Him drive off with Sandra in the sports car for a
test run, then seeing them return with Him behind the
wheel! (yes we got pics J ).
Next stop was
Domi Ma’am’s and Bodyguard’s home. What a wonderful
couple! Domi Ma’am took us to the great Menonite market
and completed our tour of the area by taking us to the
local Home Depot so we could see where the horse and
buggies park (darn I wish we had a camera!). Don’t worry
Bodyguard Sir I won’t even bring up the gas price
conversation *G*. Breakfast the next morning was
wonderfully relaxing. Sitting out side with coffee and
bagels Domi Ma’am talked very openly with us about the
lifestyle and some of the things She had experienced. I
loved listening to Her. And in turn She was genuinely
interested in Sandra and me and our thoughts and insights
into the lifestyle.
Our final and
last stop was to the most gracious and hospitable Seville
Sir and shadoe’s home. I feel so welcomed here. We
arrived here Friday and T/they all kindly put up with my
impending excitement over the arrival of Jazzy Ma’am. (I
also had the honor of meeting Hogan Sir Friday night. What
a wonderful person He is. I’m so glad I had the chance
to meet Him and talk with Him). Seville Sir had me go to
the airport with Him. I enjoyed having some one on one
time with Him and being able to discuss some things that
had been running through my head. It is so nice and at
times validating to be able to discuss with a Person that
you respect about the lifestyle. I know it’s very
cliché but the lifestyle really is this incredibly
journey, if you are serious about it and I for one find
comfort in being able to talk things out.
Saturday we hit
the town and got to see some cool shops like Northbound
Leather and Seductions. We even were lucky enough to bump
into Domi Ma’am and BG Sir . Lunch was so much fun. We
sat outside, had a great lunch and did some cool people
watching. We ended the night with my first ever munch.
There I had the
pleasure of meeting others from online, like Shadowfyr
Sir, Lustyman Sir, Oracle Sir, ginger and jewel. I had a
great time gabbing with ginger and jewel. It was so
relaxing to be able to just sit around and talk. I
even found myself going right up and introducing myself to
others which I normally wouldn’t do, but I felt so
comfortable. I especially enjoyed talking with Bernie. He
is active in the lifestyle in the Kitchener/Waterloo area
of Canada. What a gentle kind person He was. And He had
some great insights.
Sunday was a slow
moving morning, which was really nice. We slowly took our
time to get ready for the play party. Another first for
me. The play party was held at Debutaunt Ma’am’s and
diGGer’s house. What a beautiful place. I was sort of
nervous cause I wasn’t sure if Jazzy Ma’am and I would
be scening. I found myself crying a bit in the car on the
way. I tried to hide it but shadoe saw me …
I was thinking about my journal entry and all these
emotions just came to the surface. It wasn’t sad
emotions, not even sure how to describe the emotions.
Shadoe talked quietly to me and held my hand; I rested my
head on her shoulder. Gosh I have loved meeting her so
much. To me she is a kind and gentle soul and so easy to
talk to.
The party itself
was quiet and intimate. I think E/everyone felt very
comfortable. I know I did and I was comforted by that. The
first scene was between Seville Sir and shadoe. It was so
beautiful to watch. Every movement done with grace and
purpose, a beautifully played out scene in my opinion. I
felt like I was watching something so personal and
private. When the scene was done and Seville Sir had taken
care of shadoe, He quietly motioned for me to sit with
shadoe. I hesitated for a moment, almost feeling like I
was intruding on a very private moment but at the same
time I felt honoured that He would trust me to take care
of shadoe. We sat quiet on the couch together ... i was in
awe of her.
Later Jazzy Ma’am
called me aside to discuss for the first time this weekend
what O/our scene would entail. I was so happy and only a
tiny bit nervous, after all this would be my first public
scene. But I trust Jazzy Ma’am entirely and I knew She
would take good care of me. She and Seville Sir pushed my
limits and I was ecstatic about it. The scene was
wonderful and so incredibly beautiful for me ... I’m not
ready to go into any more detail ... and I don’t know if
I will be able to because it feels too personal and
private to me, almost like this sacred thing I want to hug
close to me and not share. Jazzy Ma’am and Seville Sir,
I thank You both from the bottom of my heart. And to
shadoe, Sandra, sarah and ginger, thank you all for your
love and support on this special day for me.
To A/all those I
met this weekend I want to say a HUGE thank You for Y/your
kindness and welcoming embraces. This has been one
incredible week that I will never forget. Sandra and I
shared a lot of talk, many giggles, some peaceful moments
of silence and even some tears and hugs. I am so lucky to
know someone like her.
So all in all it
has been an emotional and adventure filled week. I wouldn’t
trade it for the world. Thank you Tim. I love you.
(Louise)
... more tomorrow
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