July 11, 2000

   Master read the previous post and started to chuckle.  "You are so wrong," He said. What?  Wrong about what?  Turns out, when i was describing the grand finale flogging i received at the play party the other night, it was R that was hitting hard, and Master hitting soft.  Not the other way around!  Psyche!

     i spent the rest of the evening grumbling "ya bums! playin' with my head"

     Lucky me!  And more proof that R is getting really good at this stuff.

     The ezine  has had 812 hits to date.  And it's only been one week!  i'm really, really pleased with the response even though i'm now developing a nice case of anxiety about being able to fill it with new ideas every month.  And who ever said archiving was easy?

     i'm beginning to think i started the ezine because of my  masochistic tendencies, and when i'm not getting a bit of sadism applied to my person from another source, i do it to myself.  Heh.

     my work on the other projects i have going has been suffering however.  Hopefully i will soon be organized enough to get back to them, as well as to putting deeper thoughts in this journal.

     One thing that is disturbing me right now came in the form of a letter in the mail.  The words it said hurt Master more than He's willing to speak.  i don't think i can get into it right now, but a quote that ladyfish sent to me yesterday sums up a large part of my reaction to this letter.  

*People will forget what you said ...People will forget what you did ....But people will never forget how you made them feel...*

--ladyfish

     How provident that she sent it the same day the letter arrived.  Maybe her words will help ease the sting.