May 9, 2001

    So last night i wore both the collar and cuffs to bed.  i snuggled in beside Himself and promptly fell asleep though.  And in truth, although He had me put the cuffs on as soon as i got home from work last night, He still had so much work to do that i think He was happy when i said i understood, and that the wearing of the cuffs had already put me in a nice headspace.  And it had.  i slept like a baby.

          i'm still having some interesting experiences with the collar however.  Sunday night i went to bed just shortly before Master, and He gave permission to actually get in the bed, instead of kneeling.  i expect He knew He was going to be a bit longer with His work.  So i took the collar into bed with me, like i'm supposed to, and held onto it.  And promptly fell asleep.  

     Sometime in the middle of the night i woke up long enough to realize it wasn't around my neck.  i wasn't worried though, since i knew i hadn't done anything wrong.  In the morning i tried to find it under the covers on my side of the bed without waking Himself up, but no luck. i tried running my hand oh so casually up an down the length of the bed.  Nothing.  i went away to make tea and get the vitamins, then brought them back and ohhh so casually ran my hand around a few more spots and peaked under the bed, but it was too dark to see well.

      So i showered and got ready for work. During this time He woke up and i had an opportunity to look further.  i finally found it under the bed, near the center of the headboard.  Instant relief - since i was getting a tad worried by this point.  And reluctant to appear so.

     The next trick was retrieving it, since it was just beyond easy reach.  Luckily, Himself had a bunch of crops lying on the floor on His side of the bed, which proved very efficient.  One carefully placed scoop and voila! A collar rescued.  

     How the heck do i get into these situations?      

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"They say you should not suffer through the past. You should be able to wear it like a loose garment, take it off and let it drop."

 --Eva Jessye


Happiness Scale:

1 - 10

(the scale runs 1 - 10 ... 10 being the highpoint (go figure!)

today's about an 8.5 -

will the pudgy feeling ever go away?  i'm sitting here starving yet reluctant to eat - which is really stupid i know - and so i will eat

maybe i should just buy bigger clothes

on the upside - the daughter is coming to visit for Mother's day!